Sep 26, 2020
art: allison moore
feeling feelings. 11.02.2015. 5:08 p.m.
i like helping people. dont you, too?
what have i done. 23.02.2015. 11:24 p.m.
i should think more about myself.
if i dont, i will end up getting hurt.
who are you. 01.03.2015. 9:04 p.m.
i feel happy with you. you are the best.
something for you. 12.05.2015. 12:24 p.m.
all this time i had believed that with you i complete myself
with you i heal myself
with you everything falls in place
but to be honest
lately
its been more about me
more about how i see things
more about my opinions and perspectives
how even without you i can win and defeat and win and win
but i dont think i want to
because you’re you, right?
and i am me, right?
where are you. 07.07.2015. 2:36 a.m.
i miss you. i didn’t mean to be selfish, to hurt you.
you know how i have this tendency to push people away.
i am sad.
broken. 30.07.2015. 6:17 a.m.
your mom just called me.
how could i not save you? i was supposed to, right?
sorry, my love.
i dont know. 14.08.2015. 4:00 a.m.
i only feel angry now. how could you just decide to leave everyone like that?
but i try to calm myself down looking at this particular photo of you.
thank you. i am taking care of myself, i promise.
i think i love you.
this thing. 30.08.2015. 12:34 a.m.
everyone thinks everything i write about is you.
its been a month and today, i am going to write about you.
5:00am
i need to sleep. i cant think. i feel numb.
two months. 30.09.2015 11:56 a.m.
i know i love you.
my birthday. 16.11.2015 3:23 a.m.
i adopted your dog today.
taco is a nice dog.
i remember the day we named him.
i dont feel lonely anymore.
i love you.
happy. 13.01.2016. 3:47 p.m.
today is tacos birthday.
again. 30.07.2016. 6: 12 p.m.
taco and i miss you.
i cried a lot today.
thankfully taco was here to comfort me.
what a lovely creature.
i just cant. 15.10.2016. 7:15 p.m.
i have tried. and i am tired. i cannot seem to be happy anymore.
what have i done. what have you done.
for taco. 01.01.2017. 8:00 a.m.
i promise to live for taco.
we are too close to each other now.
i dont want him to lose another person.
happy. 22.03.2017. 6:09 p.m.
i love you.
happy. 09.05.2017. 2:00 a.m.
i met this guy today. you would have loved him.
happy. 21.08.2017. 2:37 p.m.
is taco bisexual?
happy. 18.11.2017. 7:07 p.m.
nope, he is not.
happy. 11.11.2018. 1:00 p.m.
taco is my bridesmaid today because why not?
i think i will always love you. 09. 01. 2019. 3:01 a.m.
when you left i decided to be live for you. and for me.
people always thought everything i write about is negative but no, thats not true.
i am not who they think i am.
i was heartbroken and i still am but i think it’s alright.
it’s okay because i think even being this heartbroken i can still love.
i know i couldnt save you but i guess by saving myself
i saved people who wouldnt have been saved otherwise.
i will never forget you.
taco is a good boy.
your mom is doing better now.
and i love you.
sleep well, theo.
taco. 17.10.2019. 4:04 p.m.
taco died today.