mirror mirror
Mirror mirror on the wall
Was I always meant to drastically fall?
With my smile solemnly glistening in the moonlight
And my graceful laughter cascading through the walls,
I’m ticking away like a prospering time bomb.
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Why do I continue to feel sorrow for the ones I've lost?
Your exit transcends through my bittersweet eyes, as a teardrop descends recollecting your goodbyes
Your love surpasses through every blood vessel in my veins, and yet, I still feel no remorse for my pain.
Mirror Mirror on the wall
How come my apology is a song untold?
It exits, and facades an appearance of remorse and bellows beyond the frames of my freshly painted walls
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Was I always destined to die alone?
I was misused, abused, and victimized
Yet here I woefully sit, in front of a thin layer of glass,
reflecting my every movement.
Mirror Mirror on the wall
I fear this may be my last entry before I tumble
I’ve come back to say a thank you, for all that you’ve done,
Yet it hasn't’ been enough,
considering the impact you've caused.
Goodbye to everyone who decided to leave, believe, and breathe.
And hello to the new world, which shall provide me with a spontaneous symphony.
photo: rhea kothari
deathly remorse
I lay
Alone
Against the kitchen floor
Awaiting for you to walk through the door
My milk cloth dangling alongside the pantry door, longing for you to take me and hold on.
I lay
Alone
A knife in hand
Attempting to cling onto any remorse I once had
I wait and look
For your very presence
To enter the room, and make my casket no longer present
A facade of envy filling inside my heart, every time I remember that you’re the one I lamentably lost
A memory, a sentiment, a remembrance of the ones that’ve dispersed
No longer a thought, but a fantasy conversed.
I lay
Alone
Deathly reminding myself of how long you’ve been gone
Placing an opponent of human nature against my prized possession
Slowly, painfully, yet remorsefully, slitting away any thought you were every truly there
I lay
Alone
Death upon my merciless soul
Knowing that, no matter how much I may want you,
you’ll never come home.